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wala ang aking regular chatmates dahil holiday sa pilipinas... kaya dito ko na lang ibubuhos ang aking mga iniisip

i just got my performance evaluation for the year. imagine, naka-5 years na pala ako sa islang ito. and what do i have to show for it? hmm, good question...

naisip ko lang, di ba normally sa mga job interview, tinatanong ka "where do you see yourself 5 years from now?". ano ba ang sinagot ko noon? tinanong ba nila ako nito? pero siguro kung sinagot ko man, ang sasabihin ko, i'm probably in a mid-management position already, fully integrated in the business of the company, knowledgeable in most aspects of operations and has passed x actuarial exams.

well, i'm still in the position i got in 5 years ago. i guess i'm integrated in the company and knowledgeable in the operations. but i haven't passed any actuarial exams. why? workload or sheer laziness or a combination of both.

i've been getting good performance reviews. i just haven't been promoted to mid-management level. i don't know if i really want to... i'm happy where i am. maybe i just need a raise in salary (ehhehe)... forgive my ramblings... it's just that, 5 years has passed since i got here. i'm just not sure if there is something tangible i can show for it. i should be happy... i've been truly blessed... i've been learning a lot... i'm being appreciated by my superiors... but there is something bugging me. i'm just not sure what...

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